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Three
Poems by
Tamer
Mostafa
Apology
to My Parents
I.
Father, the
Arabs say i am not complete, that
your brown blood in
my body is polluted by
mother’s white and my colored
eyes are of the devil.
Father, i
lived cheap by searching for
ads that said “50 percent off” or more and
buying only used goods, but
always got hustled when
i had to turn a profit.
Father, i
found the limited selection of
halal meat, cooked it until
it was tender, but
the spice level proportion always
threw it off.
Father, i
tried speaking your
native language even
though i paused momentarily, stumbled
over the deep glottal stops and
“kh” consonant.
Father, i
prayed five times a day in
a mixture of
confinement and congregation to
ward off extra evils of
unstableness and split personality that
only seemed to burden mixed breeds.
Father, i
am your son and
carry your full name behind
the first name you gave me at birth just
as tradition orders, but
i am never worthy of the full association.
II.
Mother, the
whites think too little of me. They
say your pale skin is not enough to
overpower Dad's broad nose, deep
voice, and rages you
think only Egyptian men have.
Mother, your
kin wants me to sell out, make
loads of money in some industrial
oil company overseas or
work on Wall Street so I could know what
it feels like to sit in a Mercedes.
Mother, I
ate like a good ole American boy. Burgers,
fries, and hot dogs. Even
a pepperoni spiked pizza that
I threw up when you pressured
me to eat it.
Mother, I
was pushed to only speak English as
a means of distinguishing myself
from the evil kind screaming
on the television with
bombs and assault weapons.
Mother, the
majority of this country wants
me in hell and
your family says they will see me there on
their ascent to heaven because
they love Jesus and
know how to properly worship a God.
Mother, I
am your son and
carried your maiden name as
my middle until I had it legally changed to
match father and his tradition because
there are limits I'm tired of crossing.
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Catch
and Release
At
dawn, a fisherman sits at the bank of
a river with his box of supplies. It’s
chilly, but not enough to halt his
precision as he loops the end of the line to
the bobber and folds the worm into the
jagged end of the hook.
Under
the fog, he casts over the shoulder and
once the bobber hits the water, he
sits on a lawn chair drinking a hot coffee.
While
looking at the trees shaped like erect
missiles on the opposite bank and
hearing the day’s first stages of traffic, he
can feel the difference between a real bite and
the current underneath the surface that nudges the
line from left to right and vice versa.
When
a bite does arrive, the
man leaps off the chair and alternates between
jerking and reeling the pole. He readies the
net, knowing it’s going to be a big one.
After
netting the catch, he
sticks his middle finger into one of the gills and
uses the other hand to free the hook with
a pair of pliers.
It’s
heavy and his arm starts to shake at
holding it vertically for an extended period of time. It
can feed him well, he can use every piece from
grilled fillets to fish head soup.
With
his free, bare hand that smells of night
crawlers and Old Spice, he rubs the soft belly and
fixates on the area below the mouth filled
with various spots of scar tissue next
to the vacant hole he pulled his hook out of.
When
he’s done marveling or
when the fish’s body stops twitching, whichever
comes first, he shifts it horizontally, slides
it under the surface and watches it disappear into
the fresh fusion of mud and water.
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Fugue
State
You
come from cowering under a car to
a sleepless wander on
the streets alone at night.
The
buildings have collapsed, their
foundations stripped of material and
most businesses are unrecognizable.
Nearly
all bodies of water have been dried
up to the catfish skeletons stuck in
whatever mud is left.
There
is nobody to go to for help, nobody
to answer the other end of the line when
you lift the payphone.
It
is cold and you are shivering
in seizure without the
proper clothing to protect against the
dirt filled wind that secretes your skin.
You
don’t know your name. It
is not stitched on your shirt or printed on
any form of identification, but
there is your body spotted in scar markings.
You
need to get checked out by a doctor but
the hospital near the city limits has
automatic sliding doors that
are stuck and click from the inside.
Through
the dust bubbles and streaks you
see your full reflection standing in
a pile of scrunched Autumn leaves and
old newspapers that
should keep you warm until
somebody arrives.
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