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 Perfectly
				Good Shoes
 It
				started with a pair of desert boots I begged for seventh grade
				Christmas
 that arrived weeks after everyone stopped wearing
				them.  I know.  I was spoiled.
 A billion people in
				China were desert-bootless-- I didn't care.  My mother
 started wearing them around the house, then for short trips
				to town.
 
 Soon she added my discarded denim bell bottoms
				with red pinstripes, my leather belt
 with the dancing bears
				buckle.  My teen years were haunted by mismatched
				versions
 of my old selves-- my mother's pale, smiling face
				perched on top.  I tried
 hiding my old clothes at school,
				but she found them.  I gave them to Goodwill
 
 but she
				bought them.  Even after I moved out, married, had children,
				I never knew
 what mishmash of my old tie-dyed T-shirts, disco
				shoes, madras shorts or wide-collared
 floral shirts would
				show up at Christmas or Fourth of July along with news
 of
				more successful classmates and clip ped obits of neighbors I
				never knew I'd known.
 
 I soak my old clothes in gasoline
				now; burn them on the darkest night of the month
 while I
				strip naked and howl.  For a moment I am free.
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			| After
				Dinner One August
 We
				found the dinosaur bones in the swamp behind Alec's house.
 The
				first bones, they must have been forelegs, made great
				swords,
 clacking sharply with each collision, whistling when
				swung overhead.
 
 The skull, almost intact and big enough
				for Alec to crawl inside, echoed
 to his chants I
				am the dinosaur's brain
				while Felix and I laughed.
 The ribs, after a little digging,
				rose out of the muck like a giant claw
 ringing sharply in the
				twilight when Felix banged them with the foreleg.
 
 Alec
				rapped the skull with small stones and I blew
 into a
				horn-shaped skin (it must have been a claw).
 The moon rose and
				clouds blew off the black, black sky.
 
 Alec bellowed and we
				hooted and cawed until Alec's mom
 yelled from atop the stone
				wall at the edge of his yard: Hey!
				and
				silence
 draped the night like a magician's cape.   
				How
				would you like it,
				she said
 if
				dinosaurs dug up your bones and started playing with them?
				I thought
 
 if
				I threw the claw like a dagger, I could take out her-- but I lost
				my nerve.  Now,
 she
				said, start
				burying them.  When I get back I want everything as it was.
 She jumped off the wall, disappeared into the darkness and we
				went to work.
 
 Hail began to rain on us, tinging off the
				bones, dinging off our heads.
 By the time we'd finished
				and rushed inside, a layer of mini white meteors
 covered
				everything.  I moved that spring.  When I drove back
				years later
 they were gone: Alec, the house, the swamp, the
				bones.
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			| Bang
				(as in Big)
 Cavers claim to know the ping and groan of Rock, the hundred
				names
 for black, claim to be the true ridge-walkers, clay
				waders, seasoned
 troglodites.  They bicker with
				spelunkers, pristine compass clutchers
 blue-jeaned neophytes. 
				They ridicule those Latinate dilettantes, ill-equipped
 tumblers,
				underground jaunters, wakening bats from afternoon batnaps.
 
 But
				neither digs deep enough, these surface-dwelling posers separated
 by slivers of shadowed hours and gear pedigree.  When I
				grab lamp and rope
 and slide down fissured rock, past
				stratified sand stone, lime stone, slate,
 through worm-holed
				stalactite caverns, gold-veined grottos, dark rivers of
				silt,
 past basalt and granite, I shed my headlamp, jungle
				boots, mud-caked coveralls.
 
 Brow stretches as
				cerebellum shrinks; body hair sprouts; nails curl to claw.
 I
				grip rock as flesh, gnaw on petrified remains of prehistoric
				beasts,
 crawl down crevices of adamant and scoria to
				sub-subterranean terra-cotta sea
 where cool becomes radiant
				orange, darkness opens to molten core and I dive in,
 swimming
				web-fingered, lava-gilled until liquid thins to swirling gas.
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